The Soda Stand

WOOT!!!!  I have two working days until I’ll be heading to Georgia to recharge my batteries with my family!!!  I will also get to have lunch/meet up with GeekyTaiTai.

I am so looking forward to this week, I can’t even put it into words.   It’s getting closer and I am getting antsy to get outta here!

I went to a Host Committee meeting this afternoon and they tried to get me to take the registration chair person position for the National Convention coming up in May of next year.  Seriously?  I ran that desk/position for the mini conference we had last June and I thought I was losing my freaking mind!!!  We only had 115 people.  A national?  Those get at least 300 people!!  There is NO way I’m taking that responsibility on.

After the meeting, I spoke to someone who has been in one of the programs I’m in for years and years.  She gave me some great insight into co-dependency and being the adult child of an alcoholic, as well as being an addict.

I think going to both programs will really help me a lot.  GA will help me with the addict inside and the other program will help me on learning how to deal with the addict inside, as well as others as a whole.   I’m really looking forward to my next meeting, which is Tuesday night.   It will give me a little bit of medicine (so to speak) before heading outta town.

My skin has been very thin lately and I’ve worked really hard at not lashing out at people.  I recognize that it’s my issue and that’s why I’m checking myself before saying anything when I get upset.  Once I’ve digested the situation, if I feel truly slighted or maligned, then I will have no problem standing up for myself.  But I find that it’s just me being over-sensitive, then I don’t say anything.

As an update to some previous posts about feeling that some of my friends have abandoned me, that feeling is gone.   After posting those few things, I ended up getting in touch with or talking with all but one of the people I was referring too.

The third and final person I’ve been feeling that way about still has not answered any of my emails, calls or messages.   Instead of focusing completely on that, I’m moving forward and learning from it.   While it still breaks my heart that Greatest Boss ever does not return my messages, I know that if I continue obsessing over why, why, why, I will definitely drive myself insane.

I can think things to death and I’m trying so hard to get out of that mode right now.   I think every little thing to death in most situations, unless I catch myself and pull back.

Tomorrow is not only the worst day every created (payroll Monday) but it’s Platoon 1 day, which means it’s my FAVORITE DAY EVER!  Oh.  Ummm yeah, that would mean I might get to talk to my crush.  And that’s always a good thing.

And now off to watch the Yankees/Mets game and try to get sleepy.  My alarms are set for 3:45 a.m. and my coffee maker is ready to brew at 3:30.  Yuck, yuck, yuck!

Until next time…

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