Lynda – If I was in Vegas, I’d be able to avoid the whole scene and go to meetings on the other side of town (they have 85 meetings per week there)…here, we have 9 meetings per week and the same people are at most of them. Can’t seem to get away from the negative nillies.

annie – Exactly!!! For me, recovery is about making my life better and moving forward, not being miserable and focusing completely on the disease. They live in it. They breathe it and I don’t want what they have.

OMG, I know! Totally!I feel the same way about AA! Whine, cry, complain, shit go out and drink if you’re gonna be sober and MISERABLE. There’s people that are sober for years but do NOT change one other thing, besides not drinking. I changed SO many things about myself and how I live. Geez!

I agree. I don’t believe rushing myself in this process will get me anywhere but even more deep into my depression or anxiety.

I’m going to continue my meetings in both programs, and see how the new higher dose of medication does with me. After that, I’ll take the next steps if I find them to be necessary.

I’m glad you found yourself again Thanks for sharing all that information about yourself. I appreciate it more than you know.

i know i was guilty of rushing myself, give me more meds, give me more therapy, etc and so on

but ya know what, i gave up, went off all my meds(not something i recommend, unless you can hide in your room for a few months), gave myself time, lots of time, i was either going to get better or end it

and after a few months, i found myself again

but then, that was me, i do recommend meds and therapy, they do help,

but, and it’s a big but, i believe, you have to dig deep within yourself and
accept yourself with all your craziness’s

that’s just MHO for what it’s worth

once i stopped trying, it seemed i was better
almost overnight(that’s a joke) but it was accepting myself,

and my new friends look at me like I AM CRAZY when i talk about my depression, they don’t see or else are liars
LOL