I just finished watching Definitely Maybe.  I love Ryan Reynolds.  I like Rachel Weisz.  I figured it would be good, considering I heard some really good things about it.

I’m going to start with the positive things and stick to the movie itself.  It was touching, cute and heartbreaking.  It was very well made and well acted.   It was a great chick flick.

Now for the bad feelings it left me with.  I felt lonely.  I felt alone and I felt envious of movie characters.

The movie is about a man served with divorce papers at the beginning of the movie.  His daughter some how talks him into telling her the story of him and her mother.  In a roundabout way.  It involved three romances in his past.

She took the information he gave her in the story and ended up guessing who her mother is.  She was right.  And then she helped her dad find happiness with one of the women from his past.

I left a lot of it out because seriously, I don’t want to relive it, kthxbai.  I will not ever watch that movie again.   I don’t like the emotional roller coaster I let myself go on while watching it.

It took me about 45 minutes of the movie to finally start “getting” it.  I was at first thinking people were smoking crack when they said they really liked it, etc.   I can see why people liked it.  Really, I can.  I guess I’m just too cynical when it comes to romance right now.

My emotions are very powerful and this movie evoked some horrendous emotions within me.  I do not like that.  I’ve been ignoring the loneliness.  I’ve been pushing through it and not letting myself wallow in that darkness.  It’s, at this moment, palpable.  I can taste it on the back of my tongue.  I hate the taste.

I’m going to watch some NFL football now, to get rid of these fucked up feelings I’m feeling.

Until next time…