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Were entirely ready to have these defects of character removed – Step 6 of the Gamblers Anonymous 12 Steps of Recovery.

There is nothing like looking in the mirror of your character defects. Every now and then, I HATE looking in that mirror because then if I recognize something, I’ll have to call it out and then deal with it. And sometimes, I just like to let myself stew and keep this one defect of character, or maybe fear keeps me from wanting to face it. Fear is most likely the cause of everything I don’t do currently.

I’m working on Step Six with my local sponsor and he’s had me filling out these “Daily Inventory” sheets for the last 2 months. Each sheet has a column for each day of the week and then 2 sub-columns under those days of the week. One column for positive and one column for negative.

I had to go through and mark each day on whether I was “positive” or “negative” with that one defect/trait. OH MY GOSH!

Here is a one day example of what I filled out:

Positive Negative

Aware of Others Self-Centered _____ _____

Thoughtful Self-pitying _____ _____

Cheerful Depressed _____ _____

There are 41 things like this. Each day of the week has the P and the N. My assignment was to go through each day of the weeks and mark whether I was “cheerful” or “depressed,” etc.

Last week? I had more negatives than positives. Overall? I’ve had lots of “depressed” “tense” “worrisome” “panicky” “intolerant” “self-pitying” “lazy” “procrastinating” and “aimless”

GB and I will be going over this stuff in a week or so and I’ll move onto Step Seven (Humbly asked God, of our understanding, to remove these shortcomings.)

Wish me luck!

Thanks for letting me share.

Until next time…

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