Ya know, I was thinking about some stuff today (I know, I could have hurt myself). I realized that every other post or so on this blog has turned into a bitch fest about my financial situation.

I am doing the next right thing for me, I’m paying what I can, when I can, so I should just be OK with that and accept my situation and not be scared. Right. I’ll get right on that fucking bandwagon right now.

I’ve accepted the fact that my credit is going down the toilet as I type this. I got my credit report and my 3 scores yesterday for 14.95. Ummm yeah, I have poor credit again. I worked so fucking hard to get my credit out of the toilet and here it is, going right back down the shitter. *le sigh* Not much I can do about it, other than what I’m currently doing.

I paid my bills on Thursday and ummm, yeah I don’t have much in the bank now. I don’t even have the money on my credit cards to use for groceries. Thankfully, I’ll be getting paid Monday or Tuesday from GB for some of the spreadsheet data entry I’ve done. That will help me get a few things. I have food in the cabinets, just nothing that amuses me at the moment. I will NOT starve.

I’m cranky about my finances. I know I’m in a learning phase and as some people in GA call it, I’m experiencing “growing pains.” Whatthefuckever.

I’ve got my one main job, I have the side job with GB (but don’t know how long that will last). He has told me he has thousands more of these spreadsheets, so I guess I have a bit of job security there. I’ve listed a buttload of my DVD’s on ebay and I am still doing some paid posts on both of my blogs. I don’t do the ones where I have to do the whole post about the product. I just throw a link in a post and get paid for it. I like those.

I am not making much money on that though and I’ve signed up with another company that does the stuff like I mentioned above. They will eventually give me a link and a word, I use it in my post and I’m done. The post does not have to contain all kinds of shit about the link. Easier than pissing off some of my readers who hate paid posts. It’s also easier on me, for this blog, because I don’t like to do the advertising here. I may do one or two at Shutterbuggin, but I haven’t lately.

I’m just at a loss of what more I could do. I’m teaching myself patience and know that it will all work out in the end, but damn it’s hard. It’s frightening and scary and terrifying.

What I need next is some diet pills so I can obsess over something else like my weight.  Ya know?  I could always do some research on them first.

Until next time…