I haven’t really been feeling it
I normally post more than once or twice a day. Some days I’ve posted at least 7 times. I am chatty like that. I like to express myself, I like to post shit on here. This blog is about me and for me (in many ways).
Yesterday I only posted once because I had company and we were celebrating New Year’s together. Today I haven’t posted much cause my company left, I’ve been blue (extremely) and watching 24 all day long.
It’s currently 12 degrees with the windchill outside right now. I’m inside and yet I’m freezing down to the bones. I’m about to go back to the couch to cuddle with the girls and cover myself with some blankets.
Currently, CSI: Miami is on the TV in the background here. I dislike the show, but I’m entirely too lazy to get up and go change the channel at the moment. I’ll just have to suffer listening to David Caruso’s horribly dry acting.
I’ve been window shopping online. Given my current state of mind, it’s really not a good idea for me to be looking at stuff that I want to purchase. I barely have impulse control when I’m feeling good, let alone feeling like I’m feeling right now. LOL
Tomorrow, I have several things planned to start improving my thinking and living here. I am going to call a doctor for me, call a vet for the girls, go to some temp agencies and find a job to keep me going until I get one of the three I’m in process for right now.
Things will start looking up. Just not right now. At least, that’s how I’ve viewed this day. I read somewhere that the way you spend the first day of your new year is the way the whole year will go for you. I sure as shit hope that’s wrong cause I’ve done nothing but cry, sit on the couch, eat shit I’m not supposed, drink shit I’m not supposed too and be homesick. I don’t want to feel that way or do those things all year long. Gah. What a horrible year that would be! LOL
I have some pictures on my camera from Christmas and the trip to Georgia. I need to get them onto the computer and up on Flickr. Actually I won’t put the ones of family up on Flickr, cause I didn’t ask them. And since I didn’t ask them, I’m not posting it. I’ll email them to my family and friends and show them off that way.
Until next time…
Happy New Year!
Make a plan for happiness… I am too! Let’s do this girlfriend!
Yes, Caruso’s acting has become simply unwatchable over the last few years…
I hope your days go better and not be like today. You deserve to be happy and get everything you want. If what you say is true, I will sleep the rest of the year on the couch.
Tori: I’ll be taking steps tomorrow to get outta this funk. I did a lot of soul searching today. Happy New Year to you too
Vixen: He hasn’t always sucked and this is disappointing for me. He’s just so “flat” and doesn’t really show any emotion other than anger it seems.
Rita: I hope so too. I’m trying and I believe I deserve to be happy too. Thank you. I hope it’s not true…that way you won’t sleep on the couch the whole year and I won’t cry all year LOL *hugs* to you and Eric and the kids.
Hello, I’m so sorry the beginning of your year was a downer. I hope that as I continue to read your spirits brighten up. I had a tearful evening a couple days after the New Year. Mine was because of being homesick too. But, I am determined to do whatever I can to visit home more than I did last year. Hope you can do the same