How can this happen?
I’ve complained about the way I sleep. A lot. I don’t sleep well most nights and so when I get a night of sleep like I got day before yesterday, I’m in heaven.
However, when I get sleep like I did last night, I complain and whine. I was still awake at 2am because I could not sleep and every time I went to try to sleep, I would go into another panic/anxiety attack and start crying. When I would start crying, I couldn’t breathe. And when I couldn’t breathe, I’d panic some more. This was happening from midnight until about 230 or so.
I finally calmed myself down around 2:30 and fell fitfully asleep. I woke up every half an hour to 45 minutes. I got up out of bed at 8:30 because I was tired of fighting it. Once I get all my errands and chores done today, I’m going to catch a short nap before Miss Monique gets here. That way, I won’t fall asleep around 9pm tonight LOL
I don’t know why I went into the anxiety last night. There is nothing MORE on my mind than there has been the last few weeks. Get a job, make money, get a job, make money. I had actually thought I was beginning to calm down from this stress and just totally lost it last night.
Today is a new day. Tomorrow is a new year. It will be better tomorrow.
I talked to my friend LL the other day, who mentioned some was upset I did not send him a Christmas card. She said he was moping around when he found out that a few people got one from me. Poor baby. So I sent him an email and wished him a Happy New Year. Hope that eases his bruised ego. *smirk*
Off to finish my chores and what not.
Until next time…
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I hope that 2008 brings you better nights of sleep and some serenity into your life.
BIG HUGS!!!
I have anxiety really bad but the medication I take works well have you thought about that because life with anxiety attacts is terrible sometimes the breathing helps but get rid of them so your life can be better I have had them since I was around 30 just this last year besides the xanax I take lexapro wow what a difference.
Jen: thanks hon! hugs back at you.
Lucky Lady: I’ve actually taken Lexapro and Ativan before for both my depression and anxiety. I’m currently uninsured, so I can’t get a doctor yet. Once I have insurance, I’m going straight to the doctor and getting help for both
I used to be the same way. I’d lay in bed at night ans simply pray that my brain would shout off. My doctor suggested I take a melatonin supplement. I got a 3mg supplement over the counter in the vitamin and mineral section. It worked wonders. I took it for about a week about an hour before bed. Now, I only take it when I have trouble sleeping (which isn’t that often any longer) or when I travel for work (because I never sleep well in a place other than my home).
Best of luck in pursuing ALL your dreams in 2008!
New day, new year… You’re exactly right. Things are going to start looking up for you very, very soon.
Happy New Year to you!